on the verge.....

i am trying to think positive about our adoption experiences because we do have our boys and they are both finalized!!!  Which is such a blessing!!  But neither of our experiences have been smooth sailing and i am frustrated yet again with the lack of communication and being told different things at different times.  We are so grateful to those who work hard to make it possible, but i am wondering if there is a spiritual battle going on here that i have not considered yet?  I don't think i would be battling so much with it, if i was not planning on adopting more, thinking we might have to put our family through all this stress again!  The financial stress is big enough on its on, but the legal aspects(more complicated than you can really imagine),