the new year

With the new year here and thinking about all sorts of things for the coming year, my hope and my dream, one that i believe the HOLY SPIRIT is pressing once again on my heart is adoption.  I cannot get it out of my heart no matter how i try and it is so hard to look at the logic of our budget and how much we still owe and go forward!  I think that international adoption is  our next step in this lifelong love of children, God willing!  I am so driven by my heart that the reality of affordability is stressing my out.  Anyone would look at our financial situation and say you are crazy!  So what do i do?  All i know is to be submissive to my husband, to pray for God to be in control of placing children in my home, and to be a God honoring wife and mother to my two boys i already have!!  If anyone reads this and has advice, i would love to hear from you.